:: Miss Beaumont's Advice <>[[You]] walk into [[Miss Beaumont]]'s office where she sits behind her desk. "Parker, I'm so glad to see you. Please sit down." You sit in the comfortable chair near her desk and wait for her to proceed. "The first thing you should know is that I've been through the Process myself," Miss Beaumont says. "You used to be a boy?" you say rather incredulously. "Not exactly. I was born a girl and started changing into a boy. However, the Process reversed itself midway through and I remain female as you can see," she says. "Mr. Anderson told me that almost never happened," you say. "It almost never does. I think I'm one of only a couple that it's been known to happen to. Of course, there could be others that we don't know about," she replies. You are eager now. "Could you tell me about it?" you say. "Well, it's rather personal and a little embarrassing, but as I said I admire your spirit and I do want to help you," she replies. "I do want to warn you that I might have to be a little explicit about sexual matters. Is that okay? I don't want to make you uncomfortable." Even if it weren't okay, you're certainly not going to stop her now, so you nod. "I didn't grow up in Rosestead. When I was a child, I was a tomboy, always playing sports with the boys and never liking girls very much. To be honest, I often had fantasies of being a boy. They just seemed to be much more fun than the girls I grew up with, so all my friends were boys and I never really had any girlfriends. When I was fifteen, one of my friends and I became boyfriend/girlfriend. We lost our virginity together and had sex a few times. The sex was terrific, but afterward he started treating me differently. More like a girl and I just wanted him to be my buddy. So I broke up with him. Sex was great so I knew I wanted to have more sex, but I also knew I didn't want another boyfriend. So I started having a whole succession of one-night stands, mostly with virgins. It didn't really matter how skillful they were, since it was so exciting to me that it always felt great." She continues, "Then my parents came home one day and told me we were moving to Rosestead. They explained the whole Process to me and how there was a chance that I could turn into a boy...." "Wait," you interrupt, "your parents told you about the Process before you came here? My mother never told me anything about it." "I'm afraid I can't speak for your mother, Parker. She must have known about it. I don't know why she didn't tell you," she says. "I don't either," you say bitterly. "Anyway, at the time, turning into a boy didn't sound so bad. And I wasn't really expecting to change anyway. It's fairly rare that girls turn into boys. So we moved to Rosestead and in only a few days, my breasts were shrinking and my clitoris was growing and the rest of my body was changing as well. It was obvious I was turning into a boy. Faced with the actual reality of it, I just couldn't handle it. I loved sex as a girl after all. I had no idea if I'd even like it as a boy. Plus, as you probably know, the Process makes you really want sex all the time. So I went out and had sex with every boy who showed an interest, which was most of them. And then the Process reversed and I didn't change after all," Miss Beaumont finishes. The ending of the story comes as no surprise as you had figured out pretty early on that she must be the one Mr. Anderson told you about. You remember that he had said something about her being gangbanged by the wrestling team. "So do you think lots of sex is the reason?" you ask. "I'm no expert. I suppose that's possible, but I would guess that you have to hang onto something that makes you happy about being a man and try to magnify the importance of that to you. For me, it was sex. It might be the same for you or it might be something else," she says. "Most Processees don't want the Process to stop; they usually already know that they were born the 'wrong sex,' as it were, but there must be some reason you're fighting the Process so hard. If you know exactly why, you might be able to stop it." [[I prefer sex as a man.]] <>[[I need to stay a man for Emily.]] <>[[I'll have to think about it.]]